Week 3, Friday – A Day on My Own

Jeff and the girls went to Chico visiting grandma. They took off this early morning, and dropped me off around 5am. It was a nice quiet morning to work in the GE office. The clock ticking sound and small refrigerator motor noice constantly came into my attention while I was reading the articles about Soundscape. That was a very nice quiet morning. Feeling 眾人皆睡我獨醒。

Worked all day at UO; teaching in the morning, working in the studio for five hours, preparing for next week’s Sound Design classes google slides. Came home around 6:30pm, joined Joyce for Caitlin’s belated Bday. They invited 5 other women. We just chatted, talking about kids, family, and stuff. Some lady talked about her boy friend, another talked about her mother-in-law passed away last week, and at some point, I was telling them what I am learning now at UO, trying to explain what is Data-driven instrument… One mentioned something like “starting the class with a full 20 minutes of silence, all the students just sot there silent, doing nothing. ” That sounds a very cool idea.

Nice to have the whole house for a couple of days. Sometimes, I just need the silence.

Rick Williams

Jeff and I attended Rick Williams’s memorial service tonight at Northern Light Christmas Tree Farm. Nice, lovely, yet a little bitterness floating in the air.

A great artist can make the ordinary becomes extraordinary.

Try to be in the light, and then be the light.

Rick was always a kind and warm person to me. He first time talked to me on the phone is offering me the job at LCC. He called me in one afternoon and I remembered the most funny thing he said to me on the was” This may sounds strange, but I have to ask you this question… ” Do you know what MIDI is?”” . A year later, he came to sit in my class for my evaluation. A few days later, we met in his office, he just told me that “You did a great job teaching that class, and I have no problem keep offering you this job. All we need to do is both sign here…”

We will miss him…

Jayshing’s Poem Writing Homework

Jayshing came home last night, and was so eager to write her home work. She spent as least one hour solid writing a poem that uses “the words of this week”. Jeff and I are so glad that she enjoyed her school work. I told her that I am so glad going back to school, and I know the feeling she has now. homework is not burden; it is something that your teacher (if she/he is good teacher) spent time and thoughts make a plan for you to learn new ideas and knowledges in a organized, systematical way. I feel like a sponge  again, wanting to keep socking in as much as I can each moment, and I am sure Jayshing is the same.

How about Jayling? Not quiet sure what is she thinking… Teenager.

 

LCC / UO classes next term

It is such a challenge to plan out my LCC and UO schedule. I want to teaching as much as I can , but at the same time, taking as many classes as possible at UO. I know I can do it, only it needs a lot of discipline. Family is still my no 1.  Forcing ourself taking Friday night and Saturday all day off each week for family time is great. even we may do nothing, just sit around the house doing stuff with family is something very nice.

Matt at LCC asked to if I can teach MUS 118 winter term at 2pm. Gee, this is such a great news. I was just feeing headache about my next term schedule, which originally my UO required class has time conflict with my LCC teaching schedule. If MUS 118 can move to afternoon, then I can take two UO required classes in the morning! Sometimes, God is listening. Ha.

 

Week 2 is Gone

Time goes so fast. Week 2 just ended.

Thursday night, went to Collier House attending a talk about Electronic Music in Germany. I am so surprised that NON of the attendees there I know from FMO group. I guess everyone just so busy on their school work. However, this is why I come back to school — trying to get involved as much as I can in this field, and not just living inside of my own academic bubble. The talk was good. it reminds us some good points of the EM development in Germany. It is so tight together with the war, military, and society. The war is terrible, brutal, and destructive. yet at the same time, it also pushed technology moving forward in a much faster way., then had great influence toward so much other fields in our world.

 

Jayshing’s First Homework

Jayshing got home, practiced piano and wanted to wrote her homework, realized that she left the homework at school. He was in tears, and I tried to text Jay to see if he can send me a copy of it. Unfortunately, Nola forgot it as well. Jayshing was so eager to start her first homework at 4th grader…

Met Marian Smith at UO. Most of time, we just chat about teaching and stuff. She was eating her lunch while I arrived at her office. very nice feeling of being able to talk to your teacher just like friends.

 

Beethoven Op131/Schubert/Henry von Ofterdingen

Write a short paper for the Survey class “Romantic Era”. Today in the class discussion, I really feel that as a students, especially graduate student, we are living in a 象牙塔. We all talked about STUFF. Discussing what is the meaning of the music, the poem, the life. How Beethoven transform his great musical idea into the form of eternity, infinity, and unreachable. things like… the death is actually another form of re-live your life… Then I turned around, thinking, what I need to cook for dinner for my girls and husband… Isn’t this nice? One minute, you are living in your dream world, talking high and spirit, the next moment, you are dealing with grocery shopping, house cleaning, and chicken poop… Fun life and, enjoy it while you can!


What values from Henry von Ofterdingen do you find in Beethoven’s op. 131 and in Schubert’s “Die Schöne Müllerin”?

In both Beethoven’s String Quartet op.131 and Schubert’s Dir Schöne Müllerin we can find some trace of the Romanticism values that are mentioned in Henry von Ofterdingen.

From the beginning of Beethoven’s Op.131, the melody gives a feeling of longing. It feels like someone is trying to reach out, again and again, but never be able to reach to it. The desire is so powerful and beautiful, it almost becomes painful. Just like in Henry von Ofterdingen, the poet is struggle for the infinite and the unreachable. Beethoven here is searching for the unreachable, the infinite,  though musical notes.

The last movement of Op.131 stands out so much. The rushing, forceful string sounds deepens the yearning; the sudden change of music gesture echos romanticism and brings out individual subjectivity strongly.

Dir Schöne Müllerin is a song cycle about a man loving a girl, but eventually, the girl turns away from him, he is terribly heart broken and dies at the end. The song cycle contains 20 songs, and each of them depicts vividly a man’s desire, unsettling, longing when he falling in love.   Just like in Henry von Ofterdingen, the whole composition is intermingle of love, desire, longing, and relief.

In Henry von Ofterdingen, the idea of “blue flower” symbolizing love, is also used in a few places in the Dir Schöne Müllerin . For example,  in The Miller’s Flower,  it uses the metaphor of blue flower —

        “And my darling’s eyes shine bright blue, So they are my flowers”.

Also in the song Rain of Tears, the idea of blue flower is mentioned again.  —

“And saw them nod and gaze

Up from the blissful brook,

The flowers on the bank, the blue ones,

Nodded and gazed as well.”

In Henry von Ofterdingen, the author uses green to represent Nature. Very similar idea, the poems also use “green” in a few places. In the Interlude and With the Green Lute-Ribbon, the Green Ribbon is used in the poem. It symbolize the girl that the man loves. But later in The Hunter, it also mentions the green branches, which is related to the hunter who also takes away the girl from him. And it leads to the next song Jealousy and Pride. The the man struggles in between love and hate. His favorite color is green, because his dear likes green so much. But the green also becomes The Hateful Color, because of the hunter.

In the last song The Brook’s Lullaby, both the color of green and blue show up in the same poem. —

“If a hunting horn sounds

From the green forest,

I’ll rumble and thunder all around you.

Don’t look in here

You blue flowers!

You trouble my sleeper’s dreams.”

Family Saturday

收蕃茄並冷凍。還摘了一整籃蘋果。 Jayling和Jayshing也幫忙做蘋果乾。今年的蕃茄不如去年多,可是也很好吃。我們仍有7或8袋冷凍。蘋果很棒。前花園的蘋果樹有三種不同的品種,所有的蘋果味道都很棒。感謝爺爺婆婆去年努力的照顧那些果樹。

15年前,當我開始我的第一個博士課程時,傑夫和我同意將星期六保持為“家庭日”。不工作,不寫作業, 只有家人在星期六聚在一起活動,除非有一些事件不能重新安排。覺得這麼多年下來,運作得很好。有時仍希望你能在星期六繼續工作,但與你的家人度過“不可分割的”時間是非常重要的。

我覺得我們昨天沒有和小孩共處很多時間。他們整天都在自己建造某種紙板箱。但他們很高興,享受著彼此的時光。傑夫和我花了一些時間在花園裡做事,主要採摘西紅柿。非常好的感覺。

想想;多年來我們努力工作,努力維持工作,獲得更多報酬……,現在,並非所有這些都是我們所希望的嗎?如果是,為什麼不花時間享受周圍的一切?現在我們有一份工作,一所房子,兩個很棒的女兒和支持性的朋友……所有這些,都只是在我的夢想中。現在我擁有它們!常常提醒自己,不要讓所有那些美好時刻都在不知不覺中消失。享受每一刻。

Worked in the garden harvesting tomatoes and freeze them. Also picked a full basket of apples. Jayling and Jayshing helped prepared them for dehydration. This year, the tomato are not doing as well s last year, but we still have 7 or 8 bags to freeze. Apples are amazing. The one on the front garden with three different varieties, all of the apples taste so amazing. Thank Ye-yelast year working hard taking care of it.

15 years ago, when I started my first doctoral program, Jeff and I agreed that keeping Saturday our “Family Day”. Not school work, no grading, only family get together doing something on Saturday, unless there is some event can not be rearranged. It worked out pretty well. Sometimes you wish you could keep working on Saturday, but it is so much important to spend “undivided”time with your family.

I feel we did not do very much with the girls yesterday. They were building some kind of cardboard box house on their own, all day. But they were happy , enjoying the time with each other. Jeff and I got to spend some time doing things in the garden, picking tomato, mostly. It was very nice feeling.

Think; we worked so  hard for many many years, trying to maintain a job, get more pay… And, now, isn’t all of these are what we were wishing for? If os, why not really take time and enjoy everything around you? Now we have a job, a house, two wonderful daughters, and supportive friends… all of those, are all just in my dream yeas ago. Now I have them all! I need to reminder myself that don’t let all those great moments slip away. Enjoying every moment.

First week of school

Today, I saw Jack Boss, Jeffrey Stolet, Iris, Mark, and others…They all asked the same question ” How’s you first week? ” The answered I gave them are all ” It’s great!” And it is really what I feel about this week.

 

Friday

Friday morning, 5am. Still feel sleepy. Jeff has an early early dental appointment (6:20am).

Today is the first day of teaching UO lab.